Today I am torn between emotions. Allie lost her battle with leukemia last night. I feel so bad for her family. Now that I have Izzy I understand how devastating it would be to lose the light of your life. But Allie was in great pain, so her death came as a blessing. It's hard to imagine why God lets an innocent child suffer so. She's not in pain anymore, but her parents are.
On the other side of my heart, however, is great joy. I went to the ob today and he did an ultrasound. I got to see the baby's heartbeat, and it was so beautiful. Everything looks great so far.
I know that life is full of great contrasts, and that's what makes it exciting, worth living. But today is painful. I feel deeply guilty at my good fortune. Izzy and my unborn baby both seem to be perfectly healthy, and I pray that never changes.
A beautiful life ends, and another begins. So goes the cycle of this heart-wrenching life.
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