One of my proudest moments after having Izzy was a compliment that one of the nurses paid to Chris when he and Izzy were down in the nursery. "We like to see babies like this," she said. "We can tell when a mom takes care of herself and her baby."
I was thrilled. I really did toe the line during that pregnancy.
Bet they weren't saying that about my 6 lb, 11 oz baby. And worst of all is that I didn't try as hard with her. I drank some pop, ate junky food, didn't exercise. I was so freaking sick with her. Excuses, excuses, I know.
That's a very scary part of being a mom. I am responsible for two other people's lives. My choices will be their life. I shape their very world.
And I can't even get myself to bed at a decent hour.
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Isn't is unreal how much guilt and worry we have over this? During my pg with Nick, I also toed the line, and he was a preemie. With JP, I also relaxed, and he was on time and 9lbs 10 oz. I don't know if anyone really has the answers...I just think it is all on a whim.
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